White chocolate mousse with rasberry cream

Made these for my big sis dinner party today as dessert. Friggin delicious, the recepie comes from my best friend Martijn, best cook ever next to dad :-)

X-mas project 'Mandel gave'

This is my finished project for christmas, it's a gift for mandel gave. At christmas after the big christmas dinner we eat 'risalamand' with finely chopped almonds in it, but one bowl contains one whole almond.

The bowls are decided by the one who is youngest gets to choose the first bowl and from there on each gets to choose one bowl in an order of each persons age. And last year my BF came with me to celebrate Christmas with my family and he got the whole almond in his bowl, wich means, he gets a gift and has to buy next years mandel gave, but this year we have decided that he will spend christmas with his own family because this year his niece came to the world, and he will spend 'julefrokost' the day after with my family, and we will do this every year from now on. So and because it is my family i have to buy the mandel gave for this year. And this is what i came up with, a crocheted blanket. I found it here, the pattern is written in danish, i didnt follow it exactly, i made mine a bit larger and changed the colours and had another yarn type, the border is also different and i decided to not make any flowers. 

I just love the way it turned out, and i really hope i will win my own mandel gave =P

But i do also wish for anyone in my family to win, it goes with all of their homes, it is a very neautral colour.

I will update this post with the packaging, when i have bought the last piece for this gift, was thinking some christmas cookies or candy.

Cat

Outvecklad - Poem in swedish

Outvecklad

Jag ær inte bra på att vara jag
Jag har aldrig varigt duktig på det som ska vara bra
I den tid jag har levt har det varit upp och ner
Jag ælskar att ælska
Jag ælskar at ge
Men i min tid ær ælska som mig att tro på få som ger
Værlden i mina øgon, som ung jag forstod
Ingen ær som jag och då blev jag misforstod...
Jag ær som jag ær med den utveckling som sker
Jag sitter fast i en outvecklad fas
Jag har aldrig kunnat komma førbi den førtid jag har haft
Dær ær många førhindringar som gør att jag inte kan komma fram
Jag sitter fast i en førtid jag aldrig velat ha
Jag skæmms før att jag inte kan vara jag

Trippel drawing

1 - 2 - 3

1. This is an inspiration from an Anime, Wolfs rain, there is a girl standing next to it, but I cut her out, she didn't turn out good.
2. Twisted Fate, think it's 2 years old. The ribbon is supposed to represent her life, the pole represent the people in her life. People are constant, life isn't.
3. Tribal Fairy. This isn't my original, someone else made this, I just changed it to be more me, it's over 10 years old and I still haven't gotten it inked on me.

They are all in A4.
Cat

I don't give a crap

Good morning
So I have uploaded a couple of drawings and a painting this morning, I am I bit bored atm. had a rude awakening this morning, BFs phone rang and he was running 5 min late, so I ofc also woke up, I hope coffee will help my head, when I sleep to little it feels like its being squeezed.

so...what to write...what to write...
Oh I became an aunt for the fouth time last week....beautiful baby Kahlan...looks a lot like her dad (my oldest sibling), hopefully I will go to Norway and meet all of them. I would love to do that...if money weren't that tight....Norway for family or BFs brother GFs 30 year party vacation...hmm...

you know...I don't really give a crap at work...I am a full time cleaning lady...yay...no...I used to like it...I work alone...no one is bothering me...except...when they complain....I don't really know what they complain about...they aren't being specific, it's as if they just want to complain about anything because there isn't anything to complain about.
I split Fridays work, half Friday, half sunday....and inbetween there I don't know if anything happens, so...you know what....I don't give a crap...complain all you want, I did my work. I do want to quit, but where else will I work, I don't want to go unemployed, its friggin boring. Tough I could go back to school...or I would love to go back to school, just not regular school, I want to go to art school. But...again...money is tight. Blæh...

Ahh...Family...babies....I have a BF who is not ready, and a head that is broken...I do think about starting a family...but it seems so far away...and I can't get well if a don't workout and eat the right stuff...but I can't workout if my heel wont heal....

Love doesn't hurt, people do...
Cat

Mine - Drawing

 

6 months old or more (can't remember), A5 size

This drawing was inspired by Kim Jae Joong - Mine. I hope he dosent mind me naming my drawing Mine as well...lol...he is a handsome guy, and I have a thing for Asians and blonds...lol...
oh yeah...if you don't get it, she's naked.

Cat



Mine

Earthbound - Drawing

 

a month old in A5 size

I don't draw or paint all the time. It just pops an image into my head, and I just have to draw it out, if I don't, then I walk around as if, I forgot to do something. Drawing, hmm... don't know how to explain what I feel when I draw, satisfaction perhaps, no...I enjoy the person I am when I draw, I am in more peace with my self.

 

This came out, because my boyfriend, was holding some information from me, from a trip he made with a couple of friends. I honestly do believe him, but all the fucken lies...one after another....why do I keep up with it...he does not seem to want to change

Cat

Earthbound

Experimental drawing

 

This was an experiment to see if I could draw from a real life photo, its not bad

Cat





 

cherry blossom

 

Nothing is set in a clear path - Painting

 

I actually painted this a while back, and I noticed I haven't uploaded anything thing of my artistic side, so in the following days I will take photos and upload.

 

This painting though is the fourth one I have made, started a year ago.

Cat

Nothing is set in a clear path

Chocolate muffins

Boyfriend ate 2 before they even were cooled
Cat

Wall hanged shoe rack

 There is even more room on top for 3 more shoe shelves. I love this rack cause it's buildable

Cat

 

Baby Sagen - baby blanket gift

Covering a box in contact paper 3/3

The bottom box

Identity?

At 3 am I'm sitting and watching Awkward. I have never seen it from the first season, just a couple of episodes here and there. I have just watched episode 2 of the first season, a scene made me think back of how I act around certain people. I'm never the same person depending on who I interact with. Different people get to talk to a different parts of me. I haven't really given much thought to the psychological sides of my baggage, and one stands out, the scene I was watching made me think of identity crisis. I have a hard time to maintain the true me, the real me, my real identity to all people.
I guess if I do some more thinking, my boyfriend is the only one who gets to see and experience the real me. Not all of me, but the Cat I feel is more me.
I always feel uncomfortable around others, where I feel I am not the real me.
Cat

Mixed berry crumble with vanilla sauce

Yesterday and today i went a little crazy with baking. Yesterday i made chocolate muffins and made them again this morning for my brother and 30 min ago i made mixed berries crumble with home made vanilla sauce. Delicious
Cat

Crochet Granny Square Blanket

I am crocheting a granny square blanket. i made all the squares i thought i needed, but when i joined them all together i noticed it was to small and i am running out of yarn, so this project is shelved until i finish my gift for my niece.

I finished the blanket, it came out a bit smaller than i wanted but i ran out of yarn and they stop producing my type of colour and havent been able to find the same colours elsewhere. but it's actally just the right size for me. Goin to try this again just in tunisian crochet instead.

Cat 

 

 

Shopping in malmø

New yarn project 29/9 - crochet basket

Decluttered my window

I had alot of stuff in my window and it was annoying me. So yesterday i decided to just take all the stuff and put it in a box to deal with another time. It was mostly candle decoration and stuff like that and lol some old x-mas decoration. So I took some of the stuff off my desser and put it un my window. Turned out nice. Left side holds hair stuff, right side jewlery. The candle holders i have had for ever. Took an scarf my little brother made and twisted it around and tied a bow, old plastic rose i had gotten as a gift from an old collegue from netto and a rosarie my mom bought for me and a rosarie bracelet my mom also bought for me, twisted them both around the candle holders.
Cat

New yarn project

A pilow case, did a random crochet search on google, cause i have some yarn i bought a while back but never got an idea to use it. I just loved the colouring, so i found someone who made an crochet pillow case in basket waeve
Cat

Covering a box in contact paper 2/3

The Black box on top

Covered in contact paper

I even covered the inside with contact paper

Needed something to store my yarn projects, the White yarn sticking out is another gift i am making.

Turned out exactly how i wanted it =)

Cat

Crochet basket

Not exactly the colours i wanted but i wanted to try crochet a basket, its almost done

Its finished, it came out Big enough to store my yarns

I found the pattern here i made mine larger than the original pattern, i have alot of yarn, and it's still to small, i have more yarn, but after im done with all the projects i am crocheting it Will fit all of them

Secrets

I have Dark secrets laying so close to the edge
I should try to let Them go
But somehow
They are also a part of whom i am today
I did not know for several years
During a session
One question was asked
Memories started to attach
Am i normal
For not letting go
For letting the memories of a time long ago
Stay attached in my memories
Or lock Them up
And be free
Be free to be me
Will i even be me
If i cannot remember a vital part of my memory

Covering a box in contact paper 1/3

The White box in the back

Fold dine mælke kartoner

Det er alltid smart at folde dine mælke kartoner. Tager mindre plads i skraldet. Dette lærte jeg, når jeg gik i første klasse.

Før

Efter

Good morning

This is how my mornings look like. Coffe, smoke and ipad.
Im always on google or youtube to search for new DIY inspiration, crotchet guides or shopping online ;-) and sometimes i search for some idea of how i can draw something specific, if i cant figure it out my self.
Hopefully some day soon i will be in art school, but for now, what i can do will just be as it is.

A gift im crocheting

Hopefully it will be finished in time :-)
I love making my own stuff. Its so uniqe one of a kind and not mass produced.

Blocked

when you dont know what your looking for
when you dont know what you will find
dont climb into my mind
youll never understand the mess in my head
falling back to the past
recharing my strenght
building back up my wall
no cracks for you to fall into
no openings for you to get through
youll forever fall into the blackness
into the dark pit of nothing
you are no longer part of the strenght i got

Change

So this is it. Im done with facebook. Im going to blog instead, if you Want to read Then read, i dont really Care what you do.

Im not going to delete my facebook account, but i am never ever Again going to log on to facebook Again.
Facebook has to Much drama, to many comercials. Im so fed op with being suspicious, using facebook as an search Engine to find anything stupid. Im tired of it, and it Drains me.
Im removing an distraction that is making me insecure. Im done, fed up, hate facebook.

Im doing this blog as a Way to write Stuff off, see it as an online diary, yes diary, i Will write about anything and everything.
Im sick of having to hold back all the time, i am not Like you, im different, yes i really am different from others. Like on facebook i had to reconsider anything i posted or uploaded, fucking stupid, why tha hell do i have to contain so Much of my self just because it may hurt someones feelings or whatever. F*** Y**, im not going to box my self up for you.

Im tired of not being able to voice my self, i cannot be silent, it is building up inside of me and im ready to Explode.

Im always affraid of saying the Wrong Stuff, im no good with creating connections to People, im always misunderstood, i hate that, i hate being misunderstood, yes i know i am not an easy person to understand.
The fact is, i dont trust People, there are the few friends i have that havent run away from me, When i shared my most hidden secrets, but there are alot of Them who turned Their back to me. This made me shun creating connections with people, and instead i hid, mostly online, but extremly i hid inside
of me, i closed off the World.

Now its hard to get past my fake face.